Thank You

I've truly been blessed and I say that sincerely and humbly.

It's been brought to my attention and I only think about it when it is mentioned. It's not I wake up everyday and think to myself, my life is awesome and so am I. That's far from the truth and even my closest friend who knows me better than I may know myself at times is shocked to hear that this is how I really feel about myself. To see how someone carry them self is far from how they really feel inside; it's not as obvious as you think and here's why...

For a few years now, I've held my chin a little higher, my back a little straighter, and became better acquaintances with my conscious. I became more aware of society, the people in it, and forced down the beauty of the ugly truth. That is, everything and everyone is capable of deceiving.

I've never been 100% confident in myself. I lack a lot of qualities but work to perfect them to the people who have nothing better to do but wait and watch for my mistakes to get a chance to acknowledge them because during the day, I tend to do care. I see myself as everyone else, nothing more, nothing better. I don't believe in class and I stand behind that wholeheartedly. And to hear a good friend say she is proud and happy that I'm making it, and to make it seem like my life is grand, I feel adulated. It's a strange feeling, a happy and humble feeling because for such an excessive amount of time, I felt like I wasn't worthy of much.

The capability of manipulation by people is astonishing, and it's up to you to let those people turn your world upside-down or let them open a new road to a whole different world. I've let two people into my life who worked on opposite ends and I am thankful to both because now I've seen four walls: my past, the ugly, the good, and the present.

Up to this day, it's difficult to believe anyone when they tell me I'm pretty, or attractive, or gorgeous. And he, the only person who makes me feel most beautiful asked, "Why don't you ever believe me when I tell you that?" I didn't have an answer but in the back of my mind I knew. I do believe him and so far he is the only one. The sincerity in his eyes when he looks at me says, "You are so beautiful," is moving. He taught me that it's okay for people to adore you and like it when they do. I've learned to accept compliments in the most humble form. Instead of refusing to believe it, I say "thank you" and accept it.

So to everyone who has been so kind, I want to say THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH. I appreciate all the support from my fans and am so thankful for every single one of you. Please keep up with my updates and hopefully I can deliver more music in the future. =)